Eh, Awa Macam Dah Ok Jer?

Hai, dah lama kann tak dengar khabar saya? Hiks so akan ada soalan .

“Awa dah ok ke tu?”

“Awa macam dah ok jer? dah tak dengar dia meroyan sangat kat twitter”

A Roller-coaster Ride Last Week

Let’s start the day with some good and positive things:

This my cat, after ‘lari rumah’ this morning. Haiyoo la this boy, this PKP la want to go out, #stayathome la you got Royal Canin tauuu.

So, back to the story. Currently, I’m 30 minutes away from ‘berbuka puasa’ so I’d like to write some entry about how devastated I was last week. The pressure last week was … walaweyh on top of Mount Fiji. I’ve had enough of last week.

Pheww … I Barely Survived My 2nd On Call

Ok, so I just finished my second on call, just got back from hospital at 10am today. This is my first time ye on night at ward, before this at PAC, and that day was uneventful, thank God. For those who are unfamiliar with the system, let me roughly brief you guys (so to take you down the road of despair way better yee):

Basically, in my department, we have four shifts. And our leader will decide the schedule for us, and we can have one off day in a week. Sometime kita tak tahu pun our offday, just follow the flow je and we can request specific off day provided it is granted and there’s enough person working in a ward for that day laa. so below I attach my department punya working shifts.

First Entry as a Houseman

Let’s start the day with something positive and cute … shall we? These are my boy and my girls. All healthy. Putih had some problems with her left lung laa, just started her on Antibiotic. Let see after a week. Pray for her speedy recovery okay.

Boy

Putih

Belang

So, I started the job with government on 16 Mac laa, we went to PTM at Ipoh, Perak. And due to COVID19 issues, and RMO which just started at that time, everything is chop chop fast and furious betul. PTM and orientation day everything shortened to just 2-3 days, while it should take a week to complete usually.

I Should Make Peace With Dear Self

For years I’ve been living with, if it can be measured I’ll say, not even 50%-ish confidence level. It has been that low for almost all my life. Of course it has its own ups but most of the time, it’s at below average level.

And for over years I’ve challenged myself to find love within myself. No one can love me more than I love myself, but I failed at several attempts. I deleted my social medias, shut down myself for over a year and a half. I went to the gym, tried to overcome the fear of self-image by changing it; under the clause: trying to be healthy – so I won’t feel bad about hating myself. And, when I did succeed, what to say – I was at the comfortable stages, the plateau phase of self-improvement. I am comfortable with myself, that I started to go lenient with dear self.

I Miss You, Dad

I went to a pharmacy today, and while I sat down waiting for my turns, there were these two old men, assumedly in their 60’s perhaps, sitting next to each other. And I was behind them. They chatted like it’s been a long time since their last meeting. Their excitement and all was nothing but an amusement for me.

MEDICAL SCHOOL: WHAT CHANGE?

I realized the shorter the entry, more people will engage to it and stay loyal until the last full stop. I’ll make it simple as possible but no guarantee.

So, a friend of mine from Twitter, replied to my tweet from last year when I asked what kind of story they want me to write here and she said “Tell us about your medical school journey”, and as a good, decent and responsible person, I have to write about it. What’s the point of asking if you’re not going to take in the advises and work on some?

Let’s go straight to the question: Why medicine?

I am ashamed of myself that I lose it! Can’t find it again.

I will put this up here: I am looking for a very old book, I forgot the author’s name but the book is called Cinderella Pantai Timur. If anyone has any idea where to find it, please leave a comment.

I owe you guys (and myself) one more post and this should be the third one, of January. It is part of my 2019 resolutions;- to write more, to publish at least three posts in a month. I am off to a good start. And I need to keep this pace for another 11 months. Which is pretty challenging, because it’s going to be busier by this mid year.

Yesterday, I found an activity book which I bought at Typo Australia two years ago and that book is called ‘Do You Ever Ask Yourself What If?’.

GET TO KNOW ME: HARRY POTTER ED.

Since The Fantastic Beast: The Crimes of Grindewald is about to come out soon, i’m having ‘potter fever’ throughout this week. Been reading all the trivia and questions about past Harry Potter series and coming Fantastic Beast movies. I’m excited for more Johnny Depp screening times and the answer to ‘how come Nagini is a woman?!’

How Is My Final Year? Dreadful.

I’m sorry for not writing for a while. I need time to adapt to new environment (as I just moved into a new house) and new stressful classes and ward rounds (as I just entered final year last July). I am dedicated to write and share more, as that’s what I do best. Instead of writing a thread on twitter, I think it’s more appropriate to write here. Twitter is for nothing but rants, period.