A Decade in My Life: Places I Visited & Top 5 Places I Plan To Revisit

Alhamdulillah for the past decade. A wonderful ten years journey. To make a specific calculation, ten years ago I was a young 14 years-old girl, dreaming to be a scientist; by the end of 2019, I was a 24 years old girl – 6 months after graduating medical school. Alhamdulillah for everything.

Also for the past decade, with the opportunity I had, I was able to travel and visit many places, tidak sebanyak rakan yang lain, but it was enough that I was given opportunity. This wasn’t possible if it wasn’t for the fact that I studied in Jordan, and getting my monthly allowance from my government. Even it was half scholarship, it still helped a lot.

I Should Make Peace With Dear Self

For years I’ve been living with, if it can be measured I’ll say, not even 50%-ish confidence level. It has been that low for almost all my life. Of course it has its own ups but most of the time, it’s at below average level.

And for over years I’ve challenged myself to find love within myself. No one can love me more than I love myself, but I failed at several attempts. I deleted my social medias, shut down myself for over a year and a half. I went to the gym, tried to overcome the fear of self-image by changing it; under the clause: trying to be healthy – so I won’t feel bad about hating myself. And, when I did succeed, what to say – I was at the comfortable stages, the plateau phase of self-improvement. I am comfortable with myself, that I started to go lenient with dear self.