Okay people, update. I found a bitter truth today. That spoil my mood for the rest of the day. But I better pretend like what I feel is not there and not real. Somehow, I want to be related to him. I want people to see me and him. Not as a ‘close friend’ but […]

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A letter for you. 

Now I am afraid to expose myself more to you. Like, I know what you’re going to think about me. The more I know about you, the more I think I lose myself and do not want to be myself anymore. The more I know you, the more I know which part of me that […]

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I want to say that I miss him but do not know where to start.

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Embracing ‘Ramadan’, what lies beyond.

MAY – There are more to Ramadan than meets the eyes. Ramadan isn’t merely about abstaining from food or eating at scheduled times. There are some do’s and don’ts during Ramadan – rules and guidelines we as a Muslim must abide but the whole main concept is to teach the person’s fasting about the poor and how it feels to have no food or drink to survive. Ramadan instills within us the compassion and empathy. It is also a month of austerity and modesty.

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ZERO 2.0

I have a lot of talking inside my head. There are times I feel like screaming, but I cannot f bring myself to scream. I just want to cry, but my I cannot bring myself to cry. It happens all inside my head. And I hate it when I cannot express it better. I want […]

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Maybe because my deepest ‘unethical’ desire is to be the center of attention after all. I cannot ask for it in my non-dreaming world because nobody like an attention seeker and I will be left with no friend. That’s my judgement. So I create the situation in my dreaming world, where nobody don’t give a damn about it or at least, I will make them.